I miss Chii. :))

I am serious.

When I say I love you, I am serious. Especially on a friend. I have lots of friends but I cherish few. I am not fond of putting all my efforts and trust for a friend but when I do, those are the people I don't want to lose.
It's not that I can't leave without them but with them, it would be happier. I rarely say I love you or I miss you. So when I say it, I really mean it. I don't just say it for fun or what. I am sweet yes. Especially when it comes to friends I really cherish. I am fond of hugging them, holding and clinging unto them.

I often miss my closest friends so badly. I often think of them. I talk about them to my other friends. I don't know if they are treating me as their best friend but as for me, they are more than that. I feel like they are my sisters and brothers.

People may not find me serious. They think that I'm always joking and I'm always being childish. Well, most of the time, especially whenever I'm with my friends, I find myself mischievous, but serious. I am serious about my affection to them.

Today, I decided to do my best. Not to lose to myself. I don't want to lose. I don't want to feel defeated again.

I miss my hair this long. ahaha.
Well, As of now, I'm not going to talk about my lovely hair. (What's with the lovely?) ahahha !

I decided to update more on my blog. I haven't done that since I made this blog and I am really sorry for my lovely blog. ahhaha. I want to see this blog more often.

I got my new hairstyle. Well, I cut it myself this last Monday. Nothing special. I always do this kind of thing. Whenever I see scissors, I unconsciously cut my hair. It's just below shoulder so it's not so short.
But I think maybe, this will be the beginning of the changes in my life. Yeah. I will change myself. Why? I want to prove something. I want to prove that I am not someone that others can just criticize or down.

I actually never intend to do something like this but then, last Friday, I told myself that I will make them regret the things that they did and told something bad about me.

"Basta next time, pag magkaka crush ka dapat yung mas gwapo sakin o yung matatalo ako sa pagsolve ng mystery problems."

And that's it. We are back to being friends again. Forgot the past. Erase the awkwardness. Haha, we are talking about what happened so casually now. It's been a year and a half !  I want to thank him and apologize to him like what he did to me. I formally saying

Thank you and I am very sorry.
I have my own faults. I think you should put the blame on me for creating the awkwardness between us.
But as I said, before I saw someone with much higher standards than yours, I won't have a crush on someone again.

I feel okay now. After we settled it, now, I'm feeling great.